Wow London, you've really outdone yourself.
Today's exactly my one month point of traveling. I'm currently on a 17 hour coach journey - I'm so excited - so much to do, so much to think back on! In a few minutes I'm going to cross the channel separating England and France. Going back to France, leaving the busy London life (though I've loved it). I've figured that in general there are "sight-seeing" cities, and there are "doing" cities, and for me London definitely fell under the latter category. It's a huge city: I've loved what I experienced of it: finally watched Wicked, at Apollo Theatre; bike riding at Hyde Park; art galleries contemporary and classical; concertos; parties; even just cooking a hearty dinner for housemates with standard meat, starch, veggies (such a Yarra kitchen girl). When I come back here I'll be sure to watch Shakespeare, preferably Macbeth, at the original Globe theatre; I'll go to the Jane Austen centre; see some countryside; see Bath and Brighton. For a Sydney-sider, London's really not a culture shock at all. It looks pretty similar. The feel is nothing too out of the ordinary, except that you have to force yourself to walk on the right side of the footpath so someone doesn't "kiss their teeth" at you.
If it really is more of a "doing" city then, I'd say that your fun-ness rating is more dependent (slightly more so than the "sight-seeing" countries) on who you're with and what you yourself make of it. I met the most curious people in London. A house of 10+ Aussies, all here for curious reasons.. I was lucky in that I got to see two girls again who I count amongst some of my best friends, and I got to meet two cousins from London for the first time, who really did make my experience worthwhile. My cousins are crazy and from one perspective it's apparently obvious that we're related because we're "spontaneous, outgoing and talkative". What a laugh, I don't even know what to make of it, and I cringe when I have to think about how true it is and if so, in which contexts.
Anyway, I definitely do recommend a local to show you around cities. They've been my best travel experiences so far. When I get back, I'm going to make myself useful in Sydney and study it even better so I know it as well as my cousins knew London. I have come to realise that I actually have no proper sense of spatial direction, and it's not coming with age. Throughout this trip, I've relied so much on asking for directions from randoms, and following street signs. I only like maps if it's electronic and a blinking blue light in it constantly indicates to me whether I'm going in the right direction or not. Oh my need for continuous feedback. It's pretty much needed for practically everything I do, every decision I make, big or small. Am I doing this right? The problem with this is that so much of life is can't be known with certainty. We can't know the future (newsflash, hah). But I can't progress until I know I'm right so far, and if I'm not certain, I stop. I remain stuck at the same point, or even go backwards to see where it went wrong, and it all goes in circles in my head. I've lacked perseverance at so many points in my life, especially when a lack of feedback is mixed with a learning curve or if progress isn't quantitatively measurable. The bigger problem is that when that feedback is bad, I'm almost sure to give up.
My strong need for feedback is also why Google's been so important to me after every argument, certain decisions. I shouldn't care so much. When it's advice from people, at times I have absolutely no intention of following through their feedback or advice, but really value their input anyway. That's incessant pride, I know. Some of the best advice I read years ago: if ever you're stuck on a simple yes or no decision, ask someone else's opinion -not because you will necessarily take it, but because the moment they voice their answer, you might know at that instant, just a little bit of whether you're disappointed with their answer or not. Bear in mind that this can't ever be used with important decisions of ethics or facts. Such matters are not generally subjective at all, and so the little game can't be applied and we have to consult specialised advice.
For Spain, a decision is made! How do I feel? Good! Disappointed. Both... I'm resigned to it and slightly more at peace now because I know myself that I did absolutely everything I could to go through with it. But the decision in my head had gone on for far longer than it should have; it should have been completed in Australia. The challenge was an exhilarating whirlwind at times but it eventually failed. But this time, it's not because of a lack of effort on my part. It wasn't completely a barrier of my own making this time. I feel disappointed, and even angry with the waste of time, money, effort, mental energy that it consumed in me for so long, for something that eventually failed. Annoyed, because now I need a new game plan. Scoping out more and more options in my head.